Thank you for making me lift my chin to see you, and consequently to see where the bar was; a bar that I almost forgot where it lay all this while.
You showed that compassion and kindness could exist between two strangers in a room even when one could be indifferent to the complex feelings of the other. While being respectful on a date is a bare minimum, you exceeded expectations by being caring and unhurtful when the imbalance was bound to hurt me sooner or later.
That imbalance made me start slipping down the cliff. While any other would have turned away to avoid any trouble, you caught me just before I fell. You made me look up and see where the first step was and patiently waited until I got back on my feet. At least, I tried to.
As I got up, I kept trying to convince you that you could use this imbalance between us to your advantage wherein you could have the cake and eat it while I would get a few crumbs. But you declined it. You kept reminding me that it would only hurt me while acknowledging that my offer to be used came from a place of hurt and sadness at the situation and past experiences.
I got a bit steadier on my feet but immediately sat down. I was not able to walk with you to the places of friendship that you showed me. I did look along with you at those pretty landscapes that existed only if I climbed up. You explained to me that in the process of climbing up, I could meet others who might travel with me to the places I wanted.
I listened to everything you said but I wished for the words to be different. After having the conversation explained to me like a child, you called it a night. I sat there, unable to look up. When you decided it was time to go, I held you back for just a bit longer. I never wanted that night to end while you were impatiently waiting for the sun to rise.
You gave back my broken heart, just as it was. All you did was look at the self-inflicted scars of sabotage aside from those inflicted by others, caress them to remove the dried skin when the wounds healed, and keep my heart safe from me for the night. My heart was not the same- I could see that the scars had already faded.
I held my heart in my hands for a long time, unable to put it back in its treasure. It hurt me to hold it for such a long time. My nails pierced into it causing slight swellings and ruptures here and there. Eventually, I sealed it back.
I looked up into the sky only to realize that you were the rainbow after long overcast days. Rainbows do not last forever but they remind you to enjoy the sunshine after gloomy days.
And you reminded me that I deserved lots and lots of sunshine. You were honest, empathetic, encouraging, and kind to me.
Above all, you are amazing. Thank you :)
Yours truly,
A new fan of your poems.
